Semi final hollie Hollie Hollie

Edelweiss, Edelweiss
Every morning you greet me
Small and white clean and bright
You look happy to meet me
Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Edelweiss,Edelweiss
Bless my homeland forever.


Small and white clean and bright
You look happy to meet me
Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Edelweiss,Edelweiss
Bless my homeland forever.

1st Performance

She did quite bad,she's too nervous,but isn't she faking her crying?
cannot embed the video,hmmm...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VCZdi714R4g


2nd time performance

She looked more relaxed and enjoy the song





PS: Ring a bell of mine when i was small,i love to listen to this song
Edelweiss,how beautiful you are :)

Hollie Hollie Hollie

I could have danced all night, I could have danced all night
And still have danced some more
I could have spread my wings, and done a thousand things
Ive never done before

Ill never know what made it so exciting
But all at once my heart took flight
I only know that she, began to dance with me
I could have danced, danced, danced, all night

PS: what a pure voice she has

All gone,swt

I dunno what happen in my blog,my posts wouldn't come out,oh sucks!
Some said maybe got stg wrong wioth the skin,so i have to change it again,haiz...

I got no time so i just pick randomly one skin,not so beautiful or elze= simple,but at least my posts come out,maybe I'll pimp it again if i got time

PS: FnB exam is coming this Tuesday,hmm.....Study!! Study!! Study!!

CHEESECAKE...

Some of the creations of the Wedding cheesecakes,hmm....wish i can decorate this great,so delicious o,hahha....

so beautiful:)

those are for the guests o,hehe

adu,cakepnya,with roses o,very very romantic

so elegant and pure

It's so soft and all girl's dream,love the cake

Love it love it love it

PS: I want my future shop to be like this,check it out

http://www.pscheesecake.com/index.html

Beautiful Girl

You're way too beautiful girl

That's why it will never work

You had me suicidal, suicidal

When you say it's over

Damn all these beautiful girls

They only wanna do you dirt

They'll have you suicidal, suicidal

When they say it's over

See it started at the park, used to chill after dark

Oh, when you took my heart, that's when we fell apart

Cuz we both thought, that love could last forever (Last forever)

They say we're too young, to get ourselves sprung

Oh we didn't care, we made it very clear

And they also said, that we couldn't last together(Last together)

See it's very define, you're one of a kind

But you're much on my mind, you often get decline

Oh lord my baby you're driving me crazy

You're way too beautiful girl

That's why it will never work

You had me suicidal, suicidal

When you say it's overDamn all these beautiful girls

They only wanna do you dirt

They'll have you suicidal, suicidal

When they say it's overI

t was back in 99, watching movies all the time

Oh when I went away for doing my first crime

And I never thought, that we was gonna see each other(See each other)

And then I came out, mommy move me down south

Oh I'm with my girl who I thought was my world

It came out to me, that she wasn't the girl for meS

ee it's very define, you're one of a kind

But you're much on my mind, you often get decline

Oh lord my baby you're driving me crazy

You're way too beautiful girl

That's why it will never work

You had me suicidal, suicidal

When you say it's over

Damn all these beautiful girls

They only wanna do you dirt

They'll have you suicidal suicidal

When they say it's over

Now we are fussing and now we are fighting

Please tell me why, I'm feeling slighted

And I don't know, how to make it better(Make it better)

You're dating other guys, you're telling me lies

Oh I can't believe what I'm seeing with my eyes

I'm losing my mind, and I don't think it's clever(Think it's clever)

You're way too beautiful girl

That's why it will never work

You had me suicidal, suicidal

When you say it's over

Damn all these beautiful girls

They only wanna do you dirt

They'll have you suicidal... Suicidal

PS: i've listened to this song at the past,but always forgot to browse it,

Now i have time cos somebody just sang it and rang a bell of mine,hahha...enjoy

kOTAK2...I'm coming

I got a Kitchen theory class today,and my lecturer is Mr.Amir,same person when i have on my practical class,hmm....

Actually he was a nice lecturer,if you just obey his rules

1.Punctuality
2.Attendance
3.grooming
those have to be fullfil,if you don't want a reduction in ure score,hmm...



He told us about what we're going to learn,cos this is still the briefing week,he just share things with us,from where he borned then how long he had been chef,bla3...
then he asked all of us to introduce ourselves and told us what is our ambitions


I got more than 1 ambiton,which mean good and bad things,the good one perhaps at least i know what i want to be as some of them still didn't know yet
But the bad one,my ambition is not as easy as fliping my hand,it needs hard work,determination,and patience

First: I want to be a great hotellier,who knows one day i can be a GM

2nd: I want to open my own patisserie shop,majoring cakes

and of course cheesecakes o:)

perhaps i can make my own wedding cakes leh,hahaha

all made of cheese,akakka,with nice simple decoration of flowers,hmm...

3rd: I want to be a wedding planner,where i can plan all the things

starting from the wedding gowns, the flowers,the decorations
until the foods

just like in the movie,but i'll have to work in big country already as if in Indonesia

seldom people will use my service o

But different in other advancing country

they're too busy to plan so they'll use the wedding planner service,hehe..:)

We then got the F&B theroy class with Mr.Remi,he is a French

His France acsen really nice,hahaha....he told us some French,and of course the most popular one is Bonjour,akkakka

He won't be teaching for next week and the next 2 weeks as he is going to France,his brother is getiing married,hahahha....so nice o,going to France,hmm...

Tonight,i attended the Kotak2 party,it was a party with kotak2 dresscode and for Indonesian student only,we had sate kacang there with es buah,so Indonesia,hahha

they also got banda and sang a song,guess what song

CARI JODOH,omg....hahhahha....

we then played game and my team won,Oh! when we registered our name,they gave us a Glow in the dark braclete,i took the violet color and then my team was all with the violet bracellet on them,some of the members were really lebai,khas Indo bgt,hahhaha...

Anyway my Indo aksen had changed,cos i mixed it all,Well...most of the Indonesian came from different provinces,some Palembang,Surabaya,Pontianak,Jakarta,and only soem can speak hokkien,ahhahha...kinda medok already my aksen,but that's ok,thy're all really funny :)

PS: Narsism starts before,and after the party,hahahha....

Injectection + uni collection

I woke up and get ready for the day,today Ms.Lim's class was canceled cos we've to go through the Injection and Uniform collection that made the time crashed,so she postponed it

I got a computer class with Mr.Vijayan,an Indian and a very nice lecturer,this was my first meeting with him and he told us all how to gain marks in his lesson,he also explained the rules and the worst! my first day but already got project to do,ck3..
In this term,we will learn how to use MS Word, Publisher,power point and Front Page
Our project was to design a flyer or brochure to promote HILTON hotel,and must be in hardcopies and soft

We went to the MPH(Multi Purpose Hall) at 10 to have the typhonic injection,it's an injection to make our disease that we got in our body died so it won't transfer to the foods as hospitality students have to deal with foods later in the kitchen
The injection was only for the Hospitality student o,wew...but it's for our own good too

I was kinda busy,I have to get the coppies from the shop,cos Ms.Lim and Ms.Mun Lee gave 2 books to be copied by the Class Rep,which is me,and then distribute the books as this term material,wew...i went upstair and downstair,busy la...
I ate Chicken Pepper rice today,quite good but costed me Rm 4.80

I went for the uniform collection and found out that my chef uniform hasn't arrive3d yet and have to wait for sevreal days,lol...i love that uniform the most o,ck3...
I got the service cloth,knife sets, restaurant uniform, vest, safety shoes, wine opener,hat, etc
Fortunately my name was caleed first so i didn't have to wait until 5 pm
But in the same time it was also unfortunate loh, the school bus only comes at 4.15pm ,5.15pm ,6.15pm,now it's around 3 only,so i'll just get ol at the library again o,hahhahha....

PS: Wondering where to go for today's dinner,hmm.....

Skiiping

So nice to get ol again,I skipped my blogs again,swt...
But i got reason for this, I got no laptop here,and planned to buy one asap
and the fact was i didn't buy it in my first day,2nd,3rd and i bought it on the 4th day
When i thought i could get online,the fact stg wrong with the server so the owner told me the people will fix it by this week which meant i'll have to wait,and until now still broken
I have to ol at the college or by using the wi-fi access on the plaza
So annoying and suffering,ck3...

What i've been through this weeks were undescriable,so many things happened
From the orientation,the team building games,the uniform measurement, the classmates,until the lessons

I wouldn't write them all,cos just too much and i forgot some already,the exact date
But the orientation was boring
The game was fun
Love the uniform,esp the chef uniform,but the restaurant's was very nice too

Then got 4 Iranian students,1 Pollish, Lots of Indonesian and Malay,got Korean and Chinese as well,1 Uzbekistan,1 Kenya, 1 Tanzanian,etc
2 France mentor,i got Mr.Soouji,and Indian,hahhaha....but Mr.Remi gonna teach us in Food and Beverage theory class

They taught us all how to tie up the hair,just like the stewardess,so cool,like the shell,dun have the photo r...hmm...
Then taught us the grooming,what to wear and not, mostly the boys HAVE to wear a tie,and that makes them look really good,some even wear the coat,very formal
while the girls also can wear blazer that makes them look like the businesswomen,hahhaha...

I always love to see guys in their working shirts,with the ties,and coats
Oh! how could i forget, i saw an European guy ...very nice looking,just so captivating o,and very very handsome with his glasses,so smart,akakkakka....i think he's my senior,but just fancy him la,hahha.....

The canteens were great! Tons of foods to be tried....yummy :)
The cakes were awesome,nice design and very2 yummy,i wonder how they made them,wish i had a pattiserie class later....I want those cakes loh,esp the CHeesecakes,my fav :)
I didn;t want to buy e actually,but the trader asked me to try the sample,and i just fall in love with it,each for RM 2, a very small piece of cake loh,haiz...IDR 6000 already,haiya...

I joined the BBQ party that will be held this 31st,RM 5 and is hoping can join the Summer camp as well,but see how la later
I was chosen to be the Class Representative,it's kinda the class monitor,i didn;t want to be because it's a lot of work to do,and on my first day i had to go to the shop and photostat the documents for 15 people in my group
Oh! talking about group,this intake got around 100++ students,so they divided it into 9 groups,by testing our english,and that's what i called English Placement Test

The test structure was like the IELTS,but no Speaking
For group 1,2 and 9,didn;t have to attend english course anymore,which mean the lessons were less, i got the 1st group,hoaray!

All my friends here were lebai,hahaha...so i'm not the lebaiest la,hahahha...

PS: Miss my family n friends in Medan o

Team Building

Me and Debbie walked to school,hahha.....we missed the 8.10 bus and the 8.35 bus also already gone,it came earlier today,ck3...
I knew that from people,and They names are Gibson and Lyn

Today we got the teambuilding session,and were devided into 6main groups,oh! The Chinese boy name S and his b’day was 22th August o,hahha...2 days earlier than me,i knew that because we were asked to line up according to the date of birth and the month WITHOUT making a single sound,so we’re just pointing,eye contacting and finger gestures + body language

My group got 16 people and i was asked to be the leader,I didn’t want to because a leader has to take responsibilty for the members,and usually the busiest one,hahah...
I have to memorized their strage cute names,Oh my....Got one Iranian girl,i could hardly remember her name,ck3...Adrian,Alweno and Valencia were in my group,we were the first group and we named it Apple,don’t ask me why,hahhaa...it’s the Iranian girl’s idea,maybe because sh loves apple so much,and besides that an apple a day keeps the doctor away right?


We played games,i couldn’t describe them in details,but the first game was a really tough one,my body all got hurt r,hahha...we were asked to collect as many balls from the middle hulla hoop,we here means all of us,around 150 people,hahha...
You may use grabbing,defending your hulla hoop as the balls later would get into there,and snatching of course,hahaha....


1st round,my team got the 3rd rank,and the 2nd round all of us fail,even some should be the winner because the leader said that designed not to fight each otehr,but gotta help each other
We later will be working as a team,even different department,maybe some can be in the Kitchen,Front Office, F& B and Room Service one,but above them all we still work for one major thing,THE HOTEL,so we should help each other and not fightdropping each other.


The 2nd game was called Human Machine,every group have to perform one machine,i picked the Train at first when one of my team member saidwe needed stg more creative,and igave them a minute to think of one machine,result turned out to be only around 3 gave idea,some said how about the CCTV camera,ahhaha...i couldn’t understand how we could role as the CCTV camera,hmm...then my idea was the Arcade machine,we could find it at the Carnival,where we give coupon and we will be given guns and have to shoot targets to get a gift.


We had roughly 20min to practice,move,and make background sounds wew...
As a leader I had to plan and arrange them all,we practise and then perform
The 1st team was Arek’s,they acted as the Train,it’s very funny and I got the 2nd one,then continued by Medhi’s as the Talking Vending machine, Steven’s as the Radio, Ali’s as the wat r...i forgot,and last team acted as the train also,GB i didn’t play the Train,cos got 2 trains already,hehe...

the last game was really unexpected,I never thought that they'ld be that brave to held this game,ck3...
I got some photos of them,alter i'll upload deh

PS: Tired...but excited :)

1st night in KL

1st day

Sutomo school opened today,me and mom had to catch the 9.40 flight while Grandama is going to Bali with Bentengs,It was Monday morning and I slept quite late yesterday so of course felt very sleepy,hmm…
Said goodbye to Dad,bro,sis,Grandma and sis Pipit(my maid), felt quite sad,but still got mom right?
We reached airport around 7 after dropping Anna,the airport was not really crowded,saw some Muslim who are going to naik Haji,then after around 8,Global friends came,Oh! Bad news,plane got delayed 2hours,ck3…it supposed to take flight at 9.40 turned out into 11.40,swt. Hate the airport,too small,and no facilities,wish the new Kuala Namu one can give me a good impression.
Felt really bored there,so just replying any single message from my friends saying Sun hong,Oh! Flo came to say goodbye with her PC and friends,hahhaha…Anyway Sandoko met me and gave me a piece of paper from T

My luggages were luckily didn’t overload as 1kilo costs 45rupiah,the limit for 1 person is 15kilo,so 2 people were given 30 kilo,mine and mom 29.4,wkwkwkkw….
We took 2 hand carries,they were very heavy as well,then somebody reminded us that a hand carry can only given max 8 kilo,GB mine was 7.7 while mom’s 8.1,so still okay
The luggages and hand carries were killing me,very very heavy already
Arrieved there and had lunch at Marrie Brown,then we went to Our own condo,mine was Ridzhuan Condo,I’m going to be D’s roomate for a year or more,so here’s the list
Fenny= Uncle James’s
Fricilia= Sunway
D and me= Ridzhuan
Franz and Rob= Ridzhuan as well
The rest= Mentari
An Indian cute boy name Husni or what la came and asked me + the rest to follow him,and my room was at th 1st floor only Block B,hahha…the purple color one,my Fav, the Blue=A and the orange= C

I was shocekd when he showed our room,ok first impression when I walked in the unit,It was colored with pink for the wall,and my room white only, the bathroom was terrible and the place didn’t smell good,argh!... We took a quick briefing,but mom kept saying from beside we didn’t want this room. So annoying,I know what she meant,but she didn’t have to keep telling me and besides it’s very impolite as the guy was explaning the rules to us,ck3…anyway the room costed 550rm for a month
At last he brought us to the Taylor’s residence office,where we complained,and asked to move to another room,I took the AC room,but they said regarding this time intake,there were many students that had stayed already and all rooms were full,gotta wait for several months and pray for somebody to get out from her room,lol

We kept urging him,until he said there was one room left but No AC,mom and D’s mom decided to take a look,it was on the 8th floor,the result and costed around 459rm,it was okay,newer and cleaner,our rooms were still untouchable,as the chair and furniture still look really new
We then moved in,Oh Gosh….just imagine dragging the luggages + hand carries,I wish I got more hands,hahhaha….moved here and there,so annoying,and tiring as well
Before moving,mom asked them to put us a te Suria Mas waiting list,as it was very new condo,so many people raced to stay there. She then said stg like,you could ask sbd who might want to rent the room at Suriah Mas,not under Taylor’s la,cos if under Taylor’s,no room already.

The staff(actually the 2nd year student at Taylor’s called Guat Sin) texted me,got an agent number called Jeffrey Lee,I always remember his name as jimmy you know,hahhaha….maybe the Jimmy Lukas priest image still stick in my head,right now.
It was quite late already when we could reach Jeffrey. I was having my dinner with mom,I ate Char Kwetiao,here different Kwetiao Goreng with Char Kwetiao,whereas in Indo,it’s just the same,only one mandarin but the rest Indonesian,but the maid said Char Kwetioa was fried with seashells while Kwetiao goreng no,hmm….weird,just the same for me,both are delicous,hahhaa…

Oh! One custom that are very weird for me,cos when I was ordering the foods,the maid just draqg the chair and sat besides you,wah3..ane tua pan r…I was shocked for 2 seconds,hahha…but guessed it showed hospitality in Malaysia,who knows….:)
We went to Suriah Mas along with D’s mom and grandma,and of course D+ my mom too,to meet Jeffrey,Suria mas was really totally new place,and if you ask me to order it increasingly then I’ll say

Mentari, Ridzhuan and Suriah Mas

Took a look at the Suriah Mas’s room,the owner was really tomboy r,at first I thought we(me and D) gonna stay with mix people,I mean men and women in the same unit but different rooms,but when talking to her and saw her nearly,SHE WAS A GIRL,ck3…her hair la,wew…emo style,totally man’s hair,jrbrak jrbrik,hahahha….The room was okay,But again No AC r…and no studying table too,cos the woner actually wanted to rent to workers only,not student,she didn’t speak Hokkien or Malay,Kantonese,khek, Mandarin and English can,her name is Micky,25years old,and working in OCBC bank as Marketingofficer or manager,forgot already.
She rent the room for 550(50rm for internet) that’s for 2 people,so one people only charged you 275rm,it’s half cheaper than under Taylor’s o,ck3….no wonder they are very rich
Here’s not under Taylors,this is local citizens’ house r…
SO we made the deal and gonna MOVE AGAIN tomorrow,Oh my…..gonna be a long long way down,haiz…



PS: My first and last day staying in Ridzhuan,hahaha…as I’m going to move tomorrow

Announcement

Maybe I won't be ol0 o for this several weeks,hahhahahha
First my speedy was Totally Extremely and Absolutely Over Limit
300% from where i should spend,ck3...
And When arriving there maybe I'll have to register for the connection and it will take times,hate to stay away from msn and fb,hmm....

PS: Seem that I could hardly hate him,cos he's my sunshine
Always shine for me,will you?

DEPAPEPE

Great! I should have known this,when I woke up I couldn’t feel my right arms,hahahha….so hurtful r…maybe because of yesterday badminton practice, I did some smashes,but easily blocked by my Bro,lol :p,but he did teach me how to improve my backhand,my backhand was sucks!

Mom cooked delicious dishes today,yummy….She always does great in cooking. Maybe she should open a restaurant,hahaha…Love her homemade dishes
Pia and friends texted me that seemed that today they’ld have to cancel the hang out cos most friends couldn’t come,Well….I’m okay cos indeed it was to urgent,yesterday suddenly we inform the rest,and no wonder some already got things to do or events to attend,so maybe next time

Budi went to Singapore today,I didn’t know what time,but I texted him already to say farewell words,hmm….Wish the best for him there

Just left 2 days before mine,and tomorrow was gonna be my last day to GMI church,and I wouldn’t miss it. I wish to attend the 7.15 service,considering the last time before I go there,but mom said Noone was gonna deliver you there,and Do not wake me up at that time,too early

So guessed I would attend the Public service again,I didn’t know what to do o,
thinking about the farewell,ck3..
It’s killing me,Mom teased me that if I go tomorrow,I’ll surely cry,ck3..She really underestimated me loh,hahhaa….But maybe yes maybe no,Why everyone said so sih? My face is really a cry baby face meh?hahhaha….

Just enjoying every single second there with my friends tomorrow and I’ll handle the rest

Oh song of the day comes from DEPAPEPE,from my bro laptop,at first I didn’t like it,because it is the instrumental songs,specialized in guitar,with 2 members,
then when watched them, their Canon in D,really amazed me,
and I love the Snow Dance too,very cheerful.
When will my bro can play the guitar that well,hahhaha….
The musics that they composed were easy to listen,perfect combination.
And when I listen to the song,Snow Dance,I caught one thing, Don’t give up! Thx for the song

PS: Couldn’t finish my packing,there are always things that I forget to bring,
argh!!! 15 kilo limits,hmm…..

Long time no sports

I played Badminton with my neighbor, pairs,me with my bro and she with her maid,we played it in the basketball court. I didn’t play it for a long time already, I love badminton more than other sports,my backhand still bad,just dunno why the hand seemed didin’t want to listen to me,ck3…while my forehand was okay,but I need more power to make the shuttlecock sounded smooth,just like my brother,hmm…
He played really good and I am so afraid of his smash,akakka….I learned how to block it,but the cock came so fast,ck3… Oh! The cock hit my ear when he was smashing, Ohhurt loh,haiz…

Then after got bored with that I played basketball with him and also my maid and Anna, my bro was to tall that I could never block his throw,and he was a great forward,with his 3point shoot,wew…
I stood at the free throw line,and tried to throw the ball,but it just went to right or to left from the ring,argh!! I'm never good in Basketball
I then cycling the bicycle,just felt so free and back to where I was small, My first hobby was cycling o,hahhaha….

When I was small I would ride my bike in my garage and around my house,I really love when the wind crossed my face and I felt so comfortable with it,and my bro was my best partner that always accompany me wherever I go, Just wish that moments were kept inside of us,I love him always even he was so naughty and got me going crazy everytime,hahahha….
I felt so fresh after playing those games,wish tomorrow I could play with them once more

At night I watched The Master season 4, it was just started so still the elimination part,as usual Master Deddy Cobuzer always amazing with his tricks,I’m wonder how much time he put to be a great magician like that,then Master Rommi Rafael,I prefer him than Deddy,sometimes Deddy was too show off and think that he’s the best,his critics,wew…seldom good,always to the negative side,hahahha…

But he did that not for nothing,but because he was really expert in it,so it’s not just a Bullshit or Nonsense while Master Rommy,he was more friendly,but I got bored with his show,cos he just hypnotized people that way and that way
One of his fav sentence
“ Lebih dalam lagi lebih dalam lagi”
All the candidates were great,I love the 1st one and a girl who could hypnotize people,the first was a waria,but he did entertain people so much,while the girl was rather nervous,but I was sure that she would be a great hypnotizer in the future if she kept practicing,I didn’t watch it until the end,because I was very tired already

PS: I ate a bowl of ice cream today,wishing I could cool down my head. And dunno since when I ate chocolates, I used to hate it so much,but remembering people said Chocolates can make you feel better when you are upset or sad, so I just ate them all. And I did feel better,fiuh…Thx Ferrero Rocher

A visit to Sutomo

Met Gozali teacher and Miss LHS,they seemed unchanged,hahahha….
I gave the report to the staff and she asked me to come again tomorrow for the result,and they’re quite busy today,there was a meeting in the school with teachers and staff

My heart situation was not really good recently,I’m afraid,just not ready yet….countdown 2days more and many other things came out in the last minute,Oh my…
Doing my best to solve it all before the time

I listened to many songs today,just to calm me down, from rock to jazz,I mixed then up all, I’m stressed!! Then i listened to hillsongs,Jesus in my life,wew...

"When things have got me down and no is around
I got Jesus, I got Jesus
When life's a mystery and peace is what I need
I got Jesus, I got Jesus

Pre-Chorus:
Everybody, everywhere
C'mon, C'mon, let me hear you sing

Chorus:
Everything Ok and everything's alright
'Cos I got Jesus in my life"

Went to Global Total to give the imperfect documents,hmm…
Recently I felt really lazy o,no mood to do anything when suddenly Anna asked me to take a walk with her around our house,so I just said yes,we went to the swimming pool and I sat by the pool with her,playing water,So fun,hahhhaa….

Pia called me,It was quite surprising,what a rare occasion,hahha….we talked almost 20minutes, just having a short flashback with her,she was going to USU to take the Doctor one,she hasn’t decided what she’s going to specialized,then we also chatted about Nickson, CP, Tang,Steven,Ong,Heri,Bachtiar,etc…All were my friends when in the Jambi tuition
We decided to hang out together tomorrow,at Sun o….Medan got no place to go,she said so,hahhaha….just imagine the location of our talking,me by the pool,ahhahha....

PS:SO just see tomorrow o

The news..

No mood for posting loh, used to be a good day,
until the news turned it all upside down
My feeling right now :
- Angry
-Upset
-Disappointed
-Regret




I'll rewrite it as soon o,maybe tomorrow....

PS: I'm so disappointed of you,thought that........
All are the same,liers

I'll have to say i love you in a song

Well, I know it's kind of late
I hope I didn't wake you
But what I got to say can't wait
I know you'd understand
Ev'ry time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song

Yeah, I know it's kind of strange
But ev'ry time I'm near you
I just run out of things to say
I know you'd understand
Ev'ry time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song

Ev'ry time the time was right
All the words just came out wrong
So I'll have to say I love you in a song

Ev'ry time I tried to tell you
The words just came out wrong

So I'll have to say I love you in a song

PS:This song always crossed my mind,hmm.....

Jacko's spirit,wew

The sun shined brightly outside too shinny instead,Outside it was very hot.

We woke up about 11 am,but we’re still tired and lazy to get up,so we just continued our talks

My handphone credits r…ARgH!!! Too much already,Dad is gonna kill me this time,hahhaha….

But it’s my last month to use my number,hmm….
I love the number so much o,very easy to memorize,beside t is only 10 digits,no limit,
as I use Hallo,and it’s very rare already,
I mean,where still you can find 081161 in front?

Oh! Before I forget, my 2nd number,I closed it already,so the 20108 was no longer available,don’t text me there,useless…

Mom asked me to get up because I had to go to legalize my reports at school,
I rushed myself to took bath and prepared the documents.
I went to school,but to bad the principal went home already,the staff asked me to come back tomorrow,before 12 o’clock.

I went home and gathered with the rest,when suddenly the Kasak Kusuk channel
,broadcasted about Jacko’s death ceremony, I missed the live show,cos it showed when midnight,haiz…
Missed that important event,I didn’t really a great fan of him,but I love his style of dancing and the Moonwalker of course,hahahha…..
wonder how he did that,and in the show, the daughter said a few words,it’s very touching,ck3…

Why when sbd’s gone we’ll just realize that we’ve got a Great person? While when he was alive,many conflicts he faced,but we just felt that it’s a usual thing

And anyway,some facts proved that JAcko’s spirit was still here,in the world,cos the camera caught his photos,and that’s quite creepy thing,but the face was really same with late JAcko,hmm…..wondering the truth

When one by one went home,I hugged them,but I couldn’t cry like I was going to meet them again, Bet I’m stronger this time,hahahha…but Aline said that she and friends would plan to deliver me when Monday,my flight was at 9.30 am,but seems that I’ld have to go there faster as this Monday my sis,RoseAnna,buy new semester books,hmm….So maybe around 7,I’ve already started my journey and reached there around 8
See you all there then:)

I went to salon to cut my hair,too long already,and went to take my fd from Cindy.
Long time I didn’t meet her,she was still Cindy,wkwkkw….of course la,haha…
I missed her too.
I went to Macan Yaohan to buy things that who knows might be useful for me when I reach there. At night nothing extraordinary happened,I just chated for a while cos my bro asked me to of,he wanted to use it. Talked to my bro in the bedroom and just get to sleep,cos tomorrow,I’ll have to go to school again.

Oh! My school was being renovated,they paint it all over with orange color,hmm….lots of works to do for them as Sutomo was not a really small school,7 buildings,hmm…Good luck then,holiday means that no single canteen or shop open,ck3…
And the school bulletin board also hadn’t changed,still the Magician edition. Miss them………..

PS: Credit over limit and now even my speedy too,haiz…Busy month

ELECTION + BBQ

I went home around 1 after did my responsibility as a good citizen,hahha…
Today was one of Indonesia important day, all of the people chose their next president,sand which mean HOLIDAY :)

There were 3 candidates,namely
1. Mega-Prabowo
2. SBY-Boediono
3. JK-Wiranto

MY TPS was at jln Bintang,near my old house,I didn’t get the paper to elect,but Daddy brought our Family card and all of our ID cards,they then let us to elect
It’s a secret who did I picked,hahahha….
I went home and got ol9 and when I went downstairs,daddy and bro + Anna were playing chess and Chinese chess,long time tradition o,love to see them gather there

They used to play those game when lots of works came and ruined everything,our gathering even on Sunday,oh sucks….But Thanks God,today You brought that back
I’m not a good player,but I played well in Chess,but not in Chinese chess,hahahha….rather confused,here some photos…

Mom asked me to accompany her to 4th floor,she wanted to wash some clothes because today my maids went home,they said because of the election,hmm….
At first I didn’t want because I’d taken bath already,and I knew that I’ll have to take a bath once more after washing,cos I’ll get wet while washing
But at last I agreed,it’s been a long time since all the family member gathered around,just love the gathering,Oh God….Thank’s for giving me such a wonderful family
I know evensometimes things gone wrongly,and there were sorrows,but I believe that in Your hands,all of them will be beautifu;,cos You’ve planned stg marvelous behind all of these right?:)

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THE BBQ

Acu came first,then Aline,TCL,Asuk and Sile
Three of us(Me,Ac and Aline) made jellies,we did them together,1st formula didn’t seem okay,hahhaha….It’s very sticky,kwkwkwkw….they said it’s like “phi”(Ups…sorry,hehe)wkwkkwkw….from the color and the texture,Oh.so disgusting,ahhahha…But can eat la,just don’t remind me about that while I’m eating,deal Line ? Zhu?hehe…It’s Lychee flavor
The 2nd one= Orange,while the 3rd = Mango mongo.love the last

the lychee flavor,hihih

Aline


Acu

We joked all round,my home was like the kopitiam,very loud and noisy,full with chatter and laughed of course,hehe… When TCl came she made the Omellete noodle,hers and mine was quite different,I mean the method,but both are still Omelette noodle
It’s quite spicy,but love it,yummy

We started when Asuk came,she was leaving around 10pm….We gossiped for a while,akakkak…all of us,we’re not gossiping,but it’s already the facts,but some still didn’t know yet,so is it count as gossiping?hmm…..

They brought their foods,
Mine= Sate+ lontong , prawns, cuttlefish, and fish
Aline= Lemon tea, Nuggets Stikkie and Zoo
Acu= Salad
TCL= Omellete me,the ingredients
Asuk= Ice cream
Sile= macaroni

The foods fullfil the table even before we sat,thing all around the table,we could hardly sit until we moved them,hahhaha….
We chatted while eating,but he foods seemed too much,hahha….
couldn’t finish them all,but we kept talking and eating,at last still left some,but not that much already,hehe…

Oh! They bought me a dress,it’s very beautiful. It’s almost the same dress,the pattern like the one I wanted last time in the Petisah Market,that cost 300thousands,almost the same,different colors and texture o… I love the dress,Thanks Guys,I love you all 
Some stayed,but 2 gone,Asuk and Sile,they’ve got stg to do tomorrow,
I hugged Asuk when she’s leaving,she kept asking me to cry,hahahha,but I couldn’t maybe because I knew we’re meeting again in the church this Sunday and the same as Sile

We continued by playing Poker and children’s game,then we got to ol9,
Aba was waiting, Aba is my ballet friend that already went to California to continue her study. The time difference almost 10 hours,so it’s morning there while here midnight,hmm…

We chatted and chatted,it’s nice to see her again even through webcam,must Thank’s the eventor,hahahhaa…. She seemed staying the same,still ba ba,hahah…and mong mong,she had just waken up,so her face was really sleepy,hahahha….

Stg wrong with the internet,she couldn’t see us,but we could,she only could hear our voices,I tried and tried then she could see our faces,but no sounds,lol…
Then we kept trying,but after deciding we prefer to hear voice only,we’re discussing if don’t want to be called gossiping,and asked her,we laughed inspite it was midnight already,Lucky no neighbor rang my house’s bell,hahhha…

Around 3 am,we’re sleepy already,and got to sleep,in my bedroom we told jokes,and Alinelaughed th most,I just slam my blanket to her mouth and face,to decrease her volume,but she could hardly stop.hahhaha…..so Nice la,awkkwkwkaka…..
We joke around and talked for a while,until I didn’t know what time we slept peacefully
Oh! i took some photos of here through the webcam

PS: BBQ + sleepover party, watch out The Gossip Grls are back

raining babe

It’s hard to believe that I woke up at 1.30 pm this morning.

I’m not a Pig ,ahhahha, Well…I love to sleep cos it will bring you to a world where no Burden you will have and a world of Yours,plus it’s really good for your health
If you don’t have enough sleep,You can easily be ill and low blood pressure = can cause faint,that’s what I had last time, then couldn’t concentrate well and unstable emotion.

I was quite shocked,ok I’ll tell what happened
,so I woke up around 8 am already,because I remembered I still ask my Grandma what time it’s now,when I thought I was going to close my eyes for a moment before I really woke up and after I opened my eyes,I grabbed my cell phone because I wanted to listen to the music,2 messages were in, made it rang,and I was still listening to the music when I planned to reply the messages and I saw 13.14pm in the clock,I just shocked. I woke up hurriedly and turned the lights on to see whether the clock in my phone was the same with the wall,and yes…It’s 13.30 already,haiz…

I know I chatted until 12 yesterday,but usually I could get up at around 9,ck3…What a wasting of my precious time r,ck3..
Time flies so fast, It seemed that I’ve just closed my eyes and then opened it,but already passed 5hours,hahaha….
I was texting like crazy recently,from room to car,from car to current places,even when practicing at the Pemuda choir,ck3…Maybe because of the BBQ party who was going to be held tomorrow night,lots of things to text and inform them about the changing schedule,bla3…wew..

It was sunny outside and mom had brought Taylor’s offer letter back from Global Total,
rules how to dress,wew…sounds weird,and the conditions that I have to agree,
ONLY for hospitality students,the rules in the way you dress is a little bit strict,wew….

Maybe they have to dress neatly,Well…. Hotel people always like that,neat,
It’s written in 5-6 pages paper, Oh! I need to go to school to legalize my reports,The Global people said no need at first,but then they said the Uni wanted a proof,ck3…very annoying,but that’s fine,I love to go back to school again,Wanna see the shopkeeper there,some maid there knew me really well already because I love to buy their foods,Hope they’re fine

I dressed up politely to meet the principal, Mrs. Emmi Gani,hahhaha….Sutomo was full with rules,have to wear trousers or skirts,no pants,then wear shoes instead of flip flop,No U can SEE,bla3…
The weather was not really friendly when I was going out and yes it was raining VERY VERY HEAVY outside, so I had to cancel the visit.

Oh! Just remember that I kept remembering the party members not to forget to bring their things,but I’ve just realized that I haven’t bought mine,swt,The “friendly” rain seemed didn’t want to stop,and tomorrow is The most important day in Indo,THE ELECTION, which means no one will open their shops o,haiz…Wish the rain stops soon

PS: ELECTION and BBQ the same time,wew…gonna be a tired day,but of course Fun :)

Clarissa my little niece o^^

I had bad hair day today,sometimes I do really hate my hair,wanna cut it.
SO messy and annoying,I could bring it to the saloon,but I hate saloon,hmm…
Have to wait,and besides my hair loss much there because they pulled it hard,and all those machine la,wew…the sounds,made me had headache
After saloon of course look more beautiful loh,but what to highlight was the process to become more beautiful,wew..Was really suffering,hahhhaaa….

I continued my Gossip Girl to 1F already,How come so many conflicts happened around them?
I used to love Nate and Dan,but seemed that he’s such a jackass,playing around girls feeling,Oh my…
Cute and handsome,I’ll have to admit who’s Nate is,but his altitude is killing his good image in my mind,while Chuck was a real Playboy but turned to be a Gentleman at the end,wew…

I didn’t suppose he’ll end that way,but bad guy gone good,hahha…He really got style when speaking,he does have a charm while for the Gossip girls, Blair Warlford and Serena were very beautiful and I’m amazed by their friendship,wew…
What I love from the movie was when the narrator spoke,and she’;d end it by saying

“XOXO, Gossip Girl”

Love her voice when saying that,hehe..
I had a headache recently, esp when I got up after watching TV,hmm….I used to have it,but lately it turned out again,ck3.

Anyway I went out to visit my little niece at Palembang,my uncle’s daughter went home last week,and is going to Jakarta tomorrow,they live in Japan,what a nice country,hmm…
Her name is Clarissa Krista Jonathan,beautiful name right?

the hair,wew






Bro too tired or too sleepy?

One thing that makes me wondering about her was her hair,she is only 10months,but here hair is kinda Mohak style,so long and jebrak2,hahahha…
at first I thought she was a he until they mentioned her name,Really look like a boy loh.
She has teng sun and also cui khut,so CUTE!!!
Not many children got it,hmm…. She loves to hug people,I was lying near her when she suddenly came and hug me,hahhaha….really really cute la,very lovely and adorable,
I got 2 nieces and 2 nephews,namely Karennina and Clarissa then Kelvin and Justine
All of them are cute,and the closest one maybe is Karen?

PS: I don’t think I can finish my Gossip Girl before I go,hmm….

Tough day

I woke up late today,bro didn’t come home last night,he was having BBQ with his friends at Cemara Asri,hmm….As usual I read the newspaper and the headline was Serena Williams won the match,me and TJ had been discussing it through msn,here in Indonesia,we didn’t have the chanel,but in Melbourne,they got it,How fun it is to know the news faster before the newspaper,hmm…

I fought with my dad today,my heart’s situation was really bad, I hope I didn’t have to go to the choir exercise,Pemuda, It’s like everything were stuck in my head, I really hate this situation as one wrong word from anyone can trigger my emotion already. I’ve been dealing with it for years,but I couldn’t handle it yet,haiz….
My emotion was unstable,I could get mad easily,but only in a short term one, I bet you don’t want and NEVER want to see me get mad in a long term duration. And above all I’m moody.
Haiz….Maybe I need to meditate myself,hahahha…..

I’m a human,a human that falls in sin already, You can’t expect me to always be a good girl,like what people always think. I still remember when I was in a tuition, It’s my first day,I didn’t talk much because I didn’t feel so well and I’m concentrating in the lesson,people then know me as a quiet girl or else be cham e la, then another situation where I just try to be nice to my friends,but they then use me to do this and that. Some even said SKSD bgt ni org,Oh mY God……

It’s very painful to know that people think that way of you,you became serba salah,don’t talk they’ll think you’re overbearing,talk to them they said you’re SKSD,ck3.
I wanted to tell them,but what to do when that kind of image had been in their minds,I could hardly change it,so I just follow the flow and hope they’ll change their wrong perceptions on me

Okay2…stop that sad story,it was a very long long time ago,Now I’m happy to be who I am
Mostly people’s first impression about me was on the negative side,they’ll said I am a very arrogant or high profile girl, seldom smile,look person from head to toe,not friendly,bla3…
Sometimes I was just quite amazed for what they thought of me at the first,but 97% of them were wrong after making friends with me,hahahha….I’ve warned you not to jugde sbd from their appearances
One if my friend name I,said :
“Thau thau la ,wa sio pi lo cia suka chek e lang lai,pasti u mia khi pan liao e la,be cham e nih…”
“at first I thought you’re a very nerd person,love books very much and class champion, be cha liao la ini”
“Tapi uda cham I la,baru cai ternyt I ane siao e ”
“but after making friends with you,proven that you’re crazy”

I don’t know why many people judge me wrongly,hahhaa….Honest hayo…si bo?hahhaha
I won’t comment so much about the real me,just let the experience of what we had gone through together can let you guess my personality o

*Just one thing, I don’t talk to much to stranger,I don’t want sbd thinks that I’m over friendly,wew..

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I went to Sun Plaza to gather with Aline friends,we’re having BBQ party this Wednesday..
Acu came first,me then both Aline and TCL,they were late,really late for sure,I asked them to gather around 2,but they came around 4,hahahha….But that’s okay,they’re having interview for the part time job,hmm…. While waiting for them I ate Fountain Ice cream,Rum and Raisin please….:)

Then went to Food Court to eat D’Crepes,Chilly Dog,love it with Acu, usuall it’s warmer and more delicious,but what I ate today was terrible,ew…
We then walked around and I went to KAiros,it moved to a bigger place,just 3/4 shops from where it used to be,I love the new place,with more books and souvenirs , I was wondering whether I had to buy a Holy Bible or not,English version one,hmm…. For later when I am in KL, I love the children’s one,so cute,with a sheep,but seemed that everyone’s gonna laughed at me if I brought that to church. It costed around IDR 200.000,ck3..

Telling about church,some friends suggest me to go to City Harvest Church,and fortunately CHC was located quite near with my Uni,but I could hardly find my Uni in the map,ck3…Or else there’s one more church,Bro suggested it for me,FGCC, First Generation Christian Church,both are located around my Uni area,hmm….But I love CHC,one of their song was CRY,and I did cry when listening to it,hahha….Christian songs always bring peacefulness to me

The lyrics were really touching

" Lost in You alone
Is where I wanna be
To hear Your voice
Softly in my ear
You whisper words to me
that I am Yours

Can't live a day without Your presence
Closer to You, I wanna be

My soul cries out for more of You, my Lord
My portion and hope
I close my eyes and feel You there
There's nobody else that can
take Your place
In my heart "

After they came, Aline was quite hungry and I teased her by saying I’ve eaten twice already,hahha…She wanted to eat Froyo,Frozen Yogurt and we decided to eat at L.A BETTY,the new shop, it was really crowded,I love the yogurt,I used the Mango and Strawberry toppings,it was really delicious,yummy ?,but the price also expensive o,hahaha….i called the medium one,it costed around IDR 30.500 with 2toppings,Aline= Rum and Raisin + orange, Acu and TCL the same= The Coco and chocolate chips,all of them are delicious

i love mine the most,yummy :)

We continued the Girl’s hang out to Hypermart,they bought some nuggets and pudding powders because this time,every members have to bring one thing to the party,we dismissed around 7pm cos daddy wanna go home from playing Tennis already, cu all girls this Wed^^

PS: exactly 1 week before departure,haiz…

PAntai Cermin....

We started our journey around 2 pm and reached there by +- 3.30pm
Report! Today was a bright sunny day,a little bit hot and full of Sunshine!

Oh! I’ve just known that Hendrik and Shella were in relationship now,hahha…they sat together in the bus,what a nice couple,hope when their relationship could last until the ceremony,hehe :p
Bro Hengky kept teasing and bothered them by saying

“Ado…lo khua la ni 2 kai,tiam-tiam co khi aja. Sinetron pun boi co r baru 3 tiam aj,bla3.”
Hahhahhaa…..

Then bro Hengky kept saying

“Puji Tuhan,siapa lagi yangmau buang sampah?”

Because after we ate the snack,the plastic we gave to him,I kept laughing in the bus,hahhaa…
Fiuh! At last stg can attract my attention from my sadness and emptiness,hmm…
After we arrived we played game,the sticker one was really funny,but we cheated by giving codes already to our next partners,Upss….:p to prevent that we wouldn’t find a partner,hahaha…

Bro Hengky was really funny,he was the MC + bro Kos as the assistant
There were 5 stage of games,the 1st and 2nd we lost, 3rd and 4th we won,and the last stage we lost again,ahhaha…my team named Bumblebee,just like the Transformer one,hehe…my leader was bro Sunar, the 1st group’s leader was Johnko with HAi Cui name,then the 3rd HT,leader was Athing lause, the last one BEKER aka bebek keren,GMI Gloria people already knew who Bebek was,hahhaa…All of the yells were very funny,for ours,we were inspired by SBY’s slogan,hahhaa..LANJUTKAN!

The name of the games were also weird and funny,I remembered the 2nd one cos it’s very painful,hahha….lucky no one’s feet get bruised,hahhaa…It was Lang bo tak te,above all the event was successful, we took many photos and mostly bro Hengky was the cameraman,with aroung 7-9 cameras on his arms,hahhaa….we posed with many poses as each camera should have different styley right? XD

when it’s getting dark,the rain fell,we ate Rujak at that time and then went home,it’s nearly 7.30pm, in the bus bro Hengky made jokes,I was tired and tried to sleep ,they sang songs and when I almost sleep Damn horn woke me up,Oh my….but it was very noisy too so it’s impossible to sleep as well,and I should stay awake to enjoy my nearly last moment with them,haiz…
They sang many songs,I love bro Jimmy one,he sang Christian Bautista’s song,I forgot the title,bt the lyrics were:

“And baby when you sleep,I watch you breathing. And baby when you dream,I dream with you………………………………………………………………………….I love you”

We also said thank’s for behind scene people in this event,such as Ato ke,John ko,Jimmy ko, Hengky and Kos ko,Athing lause, Jenny cie2, the drivers etc

PS: Love the moments,nite…….:)

Ice Age

I got scolded by mom for stg that for me was a really small matter only,Oh! Freak
I was ol9 ing when suddenly my brother came towards my place,I’ve known that every time he’s near me when I’m ol9ing,It’ll turn out to be a fight.
Yes…he asked me to of and ate my lunch,I was not hungry at that time cos I woke up late and for me it’s already Breakfast+ lunch,but he insisted,by saying

“Every time you have ol9,you can’t stop. There will be no the 2nd time,I’ll give in for letting you use the internet,bla3…”

What I hate most from him was that he loved to threaten me,e me...Who’s the hell he think he was?
Don’t because he’s older than me,he thought he was my daddy already r…
then mom came and added my burden,She kept screaming and asked me to go downstair. I couldn’t stand it anymore,so I shouted back that
I WAS NOT HUNGRY AND I’LD GO DOWNSTAIR AS SOON AS POSSIBLE after I’d finished my things here.

I started to write my blog in bro’s laptop first and then moved it to the computer,my internet connection was on my computer and that’s why I needed to move form lap to comp,when suddenly my mom again shouted my name, I knew she’s not in a good mood because of my sis and bro,but why should she take it out on me? There’s always a little thing that could make me get scolded,even it’s just a very simple one,haiz…I’m tired and sicked of all of this

J came to fetch me with H and a girl name Jesslyn or Jessica,I forgot already,hehe..
We watched the movie with J on my left side and Jesslyn on my right,the movie was REALLY FUNNY,totally entertaining,hahhaha….love Peach,she’s so cute!!
I didn’t enjoy the hang out,except for the movie,only some in these group were nice ,the rest was USED to be nice,USED TO BE,highlight that words

The past always hurtful,but heart can never lie right? I did miss S to be my bf(read: best friend r,not boy friend,ahhaa),but seemed that it’s the most ridiculous thing that can happen. He’s now got Se and H already and they substituted me since that incident. He’s changed,he’s taller than me,not a cry baby anymore,hahaha….his hair also very long already,he’d grown up into a gentleman. Totally different when we first met,in the Play Group,he’s a very cry baby boy,short,thin,ugly and with that old fashion glasses,hahhaa….Never thought he’ll turn to be like now.

I love to bully him very much as he’s easily cried and he’s so cute when he’s crying.
Maybe I should admit that first love never dies and that feeling was still here,down deep in my heart.
He’s the one who taught me what love means and he’ll forever be in my heart. But I gotta keep moving on,and perhaps he’s not the one who will end to became my soulmate in the future,but no big deal about that as what I felt towards him is not LOVE anymore,but more to sbd who misses her best friend to come back,
A friend who used to share whatever happened,No Secrecy, a friend who used to tease me in class, a friend who used to surprise me until I almost got heart attack, ,a friend who I used to chase because of your naughtiness, Missing that moment…..Do you feel the same?

Wanna say thanks to Him,for hurting me so badly and also for being a nice friend where I could share my pain with,but now we’re going to different paths,We have to move forward and not looking back,wish we can meet again in the future,and once more time Thank’s…..Thank’s Dixon for everything

J’s music taste was really weird,he loves instrumental musics,just to old one,I could harldy listen to it,hahhaa….but he did have Close To You and wonderful world,keep up the good work! :p

PS: Tomorrow bro Wed is having exam,cia you ya^^

Transformer 2

Okay, today was a really confusing day, My head was going to explode, I didn’t expect any of this thing would happen, Not this Fast at least, haiz..

Well, I’ll start at the very beginning

I went to watch Transformer today with my friends
To be honest actually I didn’t want to go,well….because who attended the group were totally not my close friends so er…seemed that it’ld be a little bit boring
But I’ve promise T,and I’m going to KL next Monday,hmm….So I bet it’s a Yes
I always fulfill my promise,and besides R is coming back from Melbourne,An old friend of mine,so Why should I say No?

I reached around 2pm there with my bro, eventually we’re watching the same movie, wew, but he’s with his friends and I’m with mine. Oh! Mom and Anne were there too
The movie started at 3.15pm, so I just hanged around with my mom, she brought me to The Executive, we’re searching for shirt the long sleeves one, it’s very hard to find one as sometimes the model was too simple, and some it’s too expensive
We ended there after buying another coat and 2trousers
The movie was great, totally men’s stuff, the Robots, the Planes, The Ships, the armies, wew…THE WAR, totally men, hahhha….but I love them, they’re so COOL
I didn’t watch the 1st sequel of Transformer, but I did know some such as Bumblebee, Ironhide, Optimus Prime and the Twins, hahhaha… I love the cars very much,just wish I could haveBumbleBEe,wew…gonna be fun

The story was quite confusing,but I could handle it,the animation was Damn GREAT! Just so real,the actors also played their roles really good ,and all the concept was really futuristic,wew… Will we have robots to help us in military for the next decade? Well….who knows :p

Love Confession

Unexpected thing happened

I was going to join my mom at Gramedia when T stopped me to say a few words,hmm…
Something in my mind said “No…not that please…”
Then after we chatted a while, what I fear turns to real right?hmm…
Yeah,A love confession,wew… directly and lively
Okay,I’ll answer truly I don’t have any feeling with him. I always and will always consider him as my friend.
Most my classmate,er…ex classmate,I have graduated already ,always keep forcing me to accept him
They said that he is a nice guy, he has been loving you since Junior High School,you could hardly fine another man like him, he’s very loyal, he’s perfect and bla3s
Well…Yes,He’s a Very Nice Guy, a Great and excellent person in both academic and also arT, A boy with an astonishing future that awaits him in front,a really promising person.

But HeLLO People…this is my feeling, I’m the one who knows what I feel. Love can’t be forced, Maybe in your mind he can be the most perfect person in the world,or wtev,he may be a really great guy,but he’s not the guy that I’m searching for.
He is not the guy that can make my heart keep jumping every time we meet,he’s not the guy who makes me feel nervous when he’s around me,he’s not the guy who is always on my mind day by day,he’s not the guy who can make me laugh and cry in the same time,he’s not the guy who drives me crazy every time I think of him, he’s not the guy who makes me can’t take my eyes of,he’s just Not…..

You deserve a better girl than me, I can feel that you love me sincerely,I’m not blind
I always appreciate what you have done,how much efforts you put in order to get my attention
How much braveness you need to gather just to talk with me or etc
I always appreciate even the least thing you have done,but I’m afraid that I’m not the right girl to get all of this,it’s just Too much….
Maybe the best way is just like what you said
“We just go with the flow first,don’t go that far. If later we meet again,then we’ll just think about it again.”
And through this I would like to say sorry too,if I ever made any mistakes or stg that hurt your feeling
But I did that for your own Good,maybe this sounds hurtful,but Idly

The main point is that Heart can never lie, I didn’t feel anything when with you,no matter how nice you are, I nEVER accept sbd’s love in the name of Poor(kasihan) ,as ke dpnnya that kind of relationship won’t last
And at last it’ll just hurt both sides,what I’m searching for is a REAL RELATIONSHIP,a relationship that soon will end with an answer “I DO” from me. I don’t need a relationship for playing or for prestige that I have bf,I’m not that kind of girl, maybe this sounds cruel and God has punished me for this

Everyone always think that I’m perfect,I got everything
Money,Family, Car,Dress,Best friends,Romantic BF, Great Love story,but the fact is I’m NOT,I’m IMPERFECT
No one knows how miserable my life can be,how many times I jatuh bangun and how liter of tears had fallen from my eyes, Got any idea about that? Everyone always look my life from the appearance only,Didn’t they know that I’m faking this Damn Smile? Didn’t they know that inside I’m screaming for help? I’m bleeding?

But that’s okay, I fall so that I can get up and every time I get up,the stronger I am to face this Cruel world. Trust no one as your nearest friend too can stab you from the back.
Yes….that’s one of my dark moment,but now I got You My Lord,and I know in every step I take You’ll be with me,stay close to me…..And with that feeling I’m ready to face the world,nothing is bigger than Your love to Me,and I’ll do anything not to break that

I know maybe this time my blog can be a little bit rude,but no purpose to offend anyone,if any of you feel offended then From my Deepest Heart I say SORRY… and I’ll have to admit it that when writing this blog I did mix my feeling and my deepest emotion inside,just consider that I’m sharing la,haha…

Sometimes I’m confused
Why we fall in love with a person that we even still not sure whether he loves us or not,whereas there is/are somebody out there that always waits for us,that loves us with all his heart? Why Love is like this?
Why we already know that by loving that person we will get hurt,but we still love him?
Why we just can’t accept the one who loves us? The one that will sacrifice everything for us?
Can anyone tell me the answer?

Anyway, I chatted with J and it’s quite an exclusive thing as I’m not really close to him when we’re in class
He’s rather rude and said stg straight to the point without any filter so sometimes talking to him could make your heart felt like being stab by swords,haha…
But I don’t know what makes me called him,just miss ?
He asked me to gather with the rest and watched Ice Age 3,about the transport it’s okay,he’ld handle it
I was quite hesitated because today I’ve just watched Transformers at the cinema and tomorrow I am going again? But remembering he’s been really nice to ask me out and I miss the rest of my friends,so Yup! SUN 21,I’m Coming AgAIN!! :p

PS: I need an answer Father………