Song from the heart

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

The reason- Hoobastank

And the nightmare happened as i can't reject it

I hate to wake up,but i know i have to
I spent my half day doing nothing.....thx for the Eclipse which had menyita most of my time
I went to lau ciu's house to paini
and when it's 16.00 i went to Aba's house
I really wish today won't pass taht quick,but seemed hoping that way is the stupidest way as the time will always move.

I've never thought that farewell could be this hard
My friend,Winny....i used to call her Aba is leaving Medan
Cos she's going to LA to study ballet
At this time when i wrote this blog she might not be in the airplane yet but at the airport i guess
I went to her house today to say Sun hong
I won't say a Goodbye as i know we'll meet again soon

We chatted and laughed with the rest(Asuk n Acu)
we teased each other,hahhahah.....just as usual

Hahah..aa.....I am so bad in pretending
I have promised myself NOT TO CRY!!!! but i just can't bear it
Remembering back our memories....even i am not really a close friend for her.
I'll gonna miss her so much that I myself wonder why i can feel this way
Maybe this is what we call love with our friend

When wrote this blog.
I AM crying.....
Just wish i am stronger n tougher to hide this stupid tears and never let it falls in front of her
Just want her to know that she really means a lot to me
If just i can spend a little bit more time with her

"Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
Since you've been gone
Just come back home"

The beginning of the nightmare

I went to Miss Wina's house to "paini"
At first i went to the Nusantara one then ternyt they all gathered at the Madiong Lubis,hahahha....
Madong Lubis is Miss mother's house
while the nusantara one is her house(well,her husband's house)
i've just arrived +- 15 minutes when suddenly all of them(Aba,Sile,Christina,Cherry n Asuk) wanted to go home already
My mistake to come late,hehehehhehe

I then went to Aba's house
And her family gathered there .....maybe because tomorrow she's leaving and also in Chinese New Year celebration.All of them are really friendly and nice
Oh! i found a fact that My mom was Aba's mom classmate
So i think we're already ditakdirkan/berjodoh ,hahahhahaha....to be friend

We chatted a lot and shared things too
We ate kuaci until segunung,hahahhahahhaha
So fun!! just wish this day would never end

At night I'm really afraid to sleep 'cos i know tomorrow will come
I dunno why but this stupid tears kept running down my face
I dun wanna sleep and just let the last tear fall n brought me to emptiness
to a place where i can dream what i want
A place where what i want is always do
But facing the reality is even harder then anything
I had to know that time won't wait
Time doesn't have feeling. It doesn't understand anything about farewell
Anything about Goodbye Anything about friendship
Everytime i think about it .....I start to hate it
But if this is the best way for the one you care alot to reach her goal?
Will you menahan it?

Dargon2.....love her

Visit my little dragon o....he is lonely and wants to grow quickly
thx ....send me message also :p

http://mallowb3rry.dragonadopters.com/

PC PC PC

PC stands not for Personal Computer,but Prince Charming,hahahhahah
Prince Charming is like an idol
Me,Cindy n Flo agree that we only fans with him(them)
I now have 3 PC
-first one is PC nakal
he's actually so cute at the first when later after knew me well
He started to change and "membuka kedok asli"
He's so naughty and like to tease me by saying
Putar2 + the movement
because I'm a ballerina
Dickson + Cp also help him,haiz...
anyway i love(read:sayang) him as my little bro^^



-Second....
Well,he's so cute and also very bashful
He didn't act well when talking to a girl
and he is the true NETTER,haiz...
I love his smile so much,hahhahahha.....



-Last,the newest,yet the coolest one
I actually have met him for thousand times,but just with a simple word of his
can make me to let him became my PC,hahhaha
He is a gangster,well...er...his friends
But surprisingly he's very polite (happened when he wanted to pay Flo)
Since then he seemed have stolen my attention
I just can't take my eyes of him
He's....well,perfect
if can be said that way,then he's totally my type o....he7^^
Just afraid i might like him,but let the time speaks

Nabati fever

Waktu lagi les di Jambi,dunno why by most of us are hungry
And CP + Arie went to buy snacks to eat
And know what they bought a lot lot lots of NABATI snacks,hhahahhaha
Check those out....Think gonna love it

tgn CP tuh

i love dolls

Ima a beautiful blonde name Blondy



Ima the fashionable one name Carmen


Hi...Ima Ema



Am i cute? Lindsey...nice to meet you


Love my tattoo.....Foxy


yes?? I...ma...Sheryl


Feminine and smart lookin,totally Rebecca

Confused o...

Ms.Liyun said that I had the talent and wishes that i'm going to focus in ballet
And the Canada's national ballet school was a great place.
Not only because of the quality,but also the fees...
The ratio are UK: Australia: Toronto respectively 1:2:3
So if in UK the fees ->300million a year,in toronto only 75million
and that made me hope for more as I had the chance to go there.
She was going back tomorrow and perhaps 3/4 years later probably will visit Medan again
I'm gonna miss her so much

even emo loves ballet

But on the other side I also alreday had my own choice that is to take hospitality for my major
Now this shows up and destroys everything
i'm totally confused....Like i had 2hearts
I love ballet of course
I had been learning it as long as i can remember
while i also love hospitality seemed that it gave me a bigger opportunity in finding jobs
ARFGHATESANALJASFA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope to find the solution asap
Seemed that i can't sleep tonight and until i found the ANSWER..

Ballet2

I went to ballet as usual and suprisingly Ms liyun had come back from Parapat
And there was a "suddenly" class and luckily too i had a ballet class today n ended at 6pm while Ms.Liyun's class was also held from 6.30 pm

We focused in the Hat dance and today there were only 3groups,not like before 4groups with more than 6people each group. So it was less crowded
The dance was very cool....I love when we had to switch formation (read:selang seling) then when sbd had to roll down and the last of course the unique part where we worked in pairs and each person had to lift her friend,hahhahaha....

We also danced the Ducks' Dance again,just to remember it
unfortunately no photos for the blog T.T

J.CO

I felt horrible today
I'm sweaty, tired yet hungry
I'm totally disaster and i trusted if any boy saw me n still can fall in love
He must be drunken

But there always solution for every prob
J.CO doughnuts save my day


first look




inside ....tara!!!

I love the Mango and Alpacone,so delicious!

Ballet

In the afternoon,i got nothing to do so i just took some pic from mom's souvenir
form Sing o....they were very cute!!!!!!!!


Perfumes.....

Today Miss Li Yun from Norway came
She taught us the Duck's Dance,which i found quite funny
I thought it was for the children,but she told us that this dance was very famous in Europe
Most people will know when you say the Ducks' dance

She also taught us the Hat dance
So cool o....but yet not finish^^
She also praised me by saying that I had a natural Softness when dancing
Because ballet doesn't always the matter of strength
It has to be strong inside but soft outside
And that's why a ballerina is also a faker,hahahhahaha
in the positive way of course^^


Tonight i performed in a wedding party at Aryaduta Hotel
Love the picture so much(read: the bride n groom's picture)

Bosen o....

Did nothing at home.....
haiz...still celebrating new year
Love Marks and Spencer biscuit so much^^

not the Phantom,hahhahaha

Oh! when i passed my ladder,i found my photos when i was a kid
Ima so cute o^^




am i cute?

Happy New Year 2009!!!

Wishes for this new year

It's party time^^

First day of the year

NOSTALGIA in my ballet career

I woke up at nearly 11 and as usual had my lunch
I ma kinda bored and I just took a lot photos from my dress
Actually not dress but my ballet costume!!
from my first kiddy costume,so simple love it so much
My child is gonna wear it for me
Today was a special day as well cos My parents + Anna is going home from KL(night flight)

Check it out^^

+- 8/9years old(the costume and ribbon)

still remember i dance it with Winnie Tiopan

dance the Nutcracker(like the Barbie)

I dance as the bridesmaid

dance of the flower(sorry i forgot the ribbon)

Shine as the Sunflower

Last gown but not least(The wedding Gown)

DAD n MOM are home!!!!!!!!!
We were quite worried because they should have arrived at home now
But no news from them and their phones weren't active
At last a ring from the phone and it was Mom
saying that they went for dinner first and in 10 minutes they'ld arrive

And that's true they Appeared 10 minutes later
I hugged my sis n mom and i kissed my dad
oH! too bad my dad was unhealthy,he seemed quite tired and quiet

But that's ok cos they are HOME^^
and i miss them so much......

I LOVE MY FAMILY